today was ok, considering the fact that i skipped english [and the compo test] for the health check, and get done over with social studies... well, bout the health check, FBT thing is still 3degree... hope it can go back to normal?
and tmr's another hellish day... chem valency test... remember the last time when i failed miserably... urgh! dont even wanna recall... i dont know why, i just suddenly lose interest in studies... i dont wanna sit in the classroom all day facing the boring teachers... i'd rather be in the cd shelter for a whole week with my cello w/o leaving than to sit a day in classroom! i just dread thinking of maths especially... but i hope this feeling will go away soon... cos it's making me slack. it's not doing me any good, and studying or not is not a course for me to change...
and it's about my grandfather... i find myself having problems communicating with him... i didnt show my frustrations to him, but im really struggling inside... i dont wanna listen to him talking about those f***ing relatives of mine [of course, the singapore ones], nor do i give a damn about what's going on in their lives... can he just stop talking bout them in front of me? he dislike people talking bad bout his children infront of him, so be it. i dont speak ill of them in front of him... can he just respect me and stop blabbering bout them when he knows that i dislike them? and it's some habit that he have... he would burp in between sentences when we talk... and personally, i hate it when people burp in my face... no matter at the table or when we're talking... it's like omg! what the heck is wrong with me these days?
