now that exams are over, no more excuses not to update... people have been telling me that i havent been updating e blog... it's literally dead... lol... especially joleen, who have been constantly reminding me that the last entry was on the 31st aug...

honestly, i feel like shutting down the blog... but not now... anyway, it was my last paper this morning... and im like, so relieved! but there's one more for me on the 31st oct... lol... dont feel like taking anymore exams this year...

wanna buy rain's album... joleen commented that im not a very wise spender... well, probably not something i can change immediately... heh! in defence, i would also like to say that i havent been really spending for more than a month! almost just as long as my online life laid dormant!

shall stop here then... :D:D

미안해요! i havent been online these days... partly cos i was lazy and have other involvements... hmm... it's teacher's day celebration today, and it's kinda great cos school hours are short... met up with hwee ee this afternoon, and had lunch... actually wanted to go back to tnps but... we didnt have enough time... besides, mrs teo's on maternity leave again... she just had her 2nd boy on the 20th aug,...! congrats :D:D

actually going to malaysia for a few days... but it's cancelled... cos of some problems,... and i guess i'll be chionging for the exams... since the report card kinda blew my mind...

will still be having CO on sat... haiz... suddenly feel so lazy... hehe.. im in total holiday mood... :P:P anyone have the power to motivate me now?

my bro's teachers made a home visit today... and it's about his inappropriate behavior in school... it's kinda bad... i really hope that my bro can change, but who knows what he's thinking? he cant speak to us, or relate to us in any ways, and im really afraid that i cant reach out to him to help him...

but it's only because of this visit when i realize that my brother is so special. he's nothing close to a freak, nor is he a burden to me... he's the most innocent (well, almost, except for certain things he do) person i know... in fact, he's an angel. because of him, i understood more about people like him, and i learn to love and care for the IDs... they have feelings, they have emotions too and i cant understand why people give unapproving stares at them... it's totally unfair! they are just special. unique in their own ways too. they are where we learn the most basic of loving and caring for others.

remember the last time he pooed in his pants and i had to wash it for him, i thought i was angry. but thinking back, i was more of sad. i realized that though im his sister, i cant do anything to let him learn.

he's my brother, so special, an angel. and i love him :)

nothing much these days...
just bout sat night... went to watch planetshakers concert... was kinda awesome... but hwee ee hurt herself during the concert and torn a ligament... apparently she was too excited to care that much and continued jumping and all that... i cant stop her... and i kinda regretted not making her go back to the seat... now she has to use a crutch... :(

and ive been meaning to type in something but i dont think it's something really worth mentioning... nvm!

but i bought a pretty volkswagon model at the expo! simply love it... i dont know why but i suddenly grow to love these stuffs! i wanted to buy the ship too.. but it's too ex... such a pity...

I WANNA BUY "EDWARD SCISSORHANDS" AND "SLEEPY HOLLOW"! omg! ive asked june to pop by HMV to help me get them, but she cant confrm with me whether she'll really be going... i cant wait to get them! from some quotes from edward scissorhands, it's like, i realized that edward is really innocent and i really cant help feeling unjust about the way he is treated-- just because of his scissorhands... but i watched the show and i remember crying buckets over it... it's s touching... johnny depp rocks la! he act very well! :D like him loads :D:D

im so crazy over out of reach la!
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

"out of reach"

knew the signs
wasnt right
i was stupid for a while
swept away by you
and now i feel like a fool
so confused
my heart's bruised
was i ever loved by you

out of reach, so far
i never had your heart
out of reach
couldnt see
we were never
meant to be

catch myself
from despair
i could drown
if i stay here
keeping busy everyday
i know i will be ok
but i was
so confused
my heart's bruised
was i ever loved by you?
out of reach, so far
i never had your heart
out of reach,
couldn't see
we were never
meant to be

so much hurt,
so much pain
takes a while
to regain
what is lost inside
and i hope that in time,
you'll be out of my mind
and i'll be over you

but now i'm
so confused,
my heart's bruised
was i ever loved by you?

out of reach,
so far
i never had your heart
out of reach,
couldn't see
we were never
meant to be
out of reach,
so far
you never gave your heart
in my reach, i can see
there's a life out there
for me

happy birthday, singapore! :D *muacks*

the thing bout yesterday is over, and today is fiesta... didnt look forward to it actually, dreaded going to school cos i thought it would be some lousy time spent unnecessarily... but things changed my opinion lors... lol...

the concert was kinda ok... joel was so POWER! lol... and dizi wad good too lors... :D

and fiesta... didnt spend much... i bought a balloon and apparently it flew away when i was playing with crapplez... we tied our shoelaces together and walked from the quadrangle to joleen's classroom... people stared but we didnt care... we were just concentrating on the thing we're doing and make sure we dont fall... jiasui was our cameraman... i dunno la... the whole fiesta was kinda wasted cos we were minding out own business doing our own things, having our own fun... but i really had a great time!

erm,... went eating with joleen and lweiting... da bao at lunched at the playground, chatting and all that... headed to tm and cs after that... and i just popped by sembawang to ask if they have 'sleepy hollow' and 'edward scissorhands' vcd... they dont! but the guy was so kind to say that he'll try to help me order! unlike the wadever-the-shop's-called shop, they dont even bother... but no matter if i get it from sebawang, i still appreciate their effort lors!
hopefully i can get the 2 vcds... ive been searching for it like mad all town...!

well, it's nothing much these days, except for an unpleasant incident that took place on saturday night... i was so damn mad and upset over it la! and esp cos im alone with my bro at home, i felt very helpless lors... and i called up some of my friends for help... i knew hwee ee was busy at the concert's but i was just trying my luck... she didnt pick up and i called joleen.. same thing... and then fengsheng... he just said he was busy and said can talk though sms... but when i smsed him, he didnt respond to it lors...

the memories of the previous quarrel's still fresh in my mind, but i cant help but feel upset and disappointed with fengsheng lors... for leaving me when i need help the most... maybe i'm not being a considerate and understanding friend, but i just cant help feeling so... he knows about my situation, yet he didnt try to respond to my calls of help... though hwee ee was busy, she still called back to ask me what was up while fengsheng didnt even ask about it the day after or anything...

i dunno... im in a mess now...